Exploring Identity in a Multiracial Society

The terms we use to identify ourselves can have a profound impact on our sense of belonging and pride. For individuals living in South Africa, navigating these identifiers is particularly complex. This article delves into the experiences of a white South African in terms of identity and pride, exploring the nuances of personal and political identities.

What Does It Mean to Be White in South Africa?

The colour of one's skin, often used to categorize people globally, holds little relevance in South Africa. Growing up in this environment, the writer reflects on their personal experiences and perspectives, questioning the significance of racial labels.

Writer's perspective: “I could similarly when viewed in terms of personal access privilege and financial status in that light be classified as White here in South Africa… but I don’t see myself as one, therefore I consider any answer I could give moot.”

One day, a character on the show Thirty Rock passionately asserts that a Latino shouldn't be considered an inner-city Latino based on circumstances, but rather for who they fundamentally are. This quote encapsulates the essence of the writer's personal journey in South Africa. While social and economic factors might place her in a demographic category, she does not identify with it.

Personal Heritage and Achievements

The writer’s pride in their heritage and the achievements of their parents is a guiding force in their identity. “I was born of white parents and am very proud of them for what they achieved in life. I supposed I am then proud to be white.” Their identification as a white South African is not about skin colour but about geographical roots and past achievements.

Defining Pride

The concept of pride is not monolithic. The writer nuances the term, stating that pride in one’s heritage is not necessarily arrogance. “I’m a white South African. That is simply a fact. I don’t see it as something to be particularly proud or ashamed of.” Here, the writer emphasizes that personal and political identities are distinct dimensions of one’s being.

Indifference and Shame

The writer’s stance on their identity is marked by indifference. They neither feel proud nor ashamed of their white South African identity. Instead, they see it as a neutral fact. “Indifferent. neither proud not ashamed. I just 'am' a South African of English descent. With all of the challenges that that entails.” This perspective is shaped by social and political realities.

The writer’s feeling of not quite belonging is a complex sentiment. “I neither really belong nor don’t belong.” This duality reflects the broader political and social landscape of South Africa, where racial and ethnic identities often intersect with class and economic status.

Shame and Anger

Feelings of shame and anger are quickly associated with the ineffectiveness of the current government and the public service. “There are many policies and procedures designed to prevent corruption and ensure transparency. But what they succeed in doing is to shroud all aspects of business in paperwork and procedures - whilst real crooks seem to circumvent all such requirements and continue to act with impunity.”

This sentiment is shared by many South Africans, highlighting a sense of disillusionment with the political system. “The ineptitude of government and the public service makes me ashamed.” These feelings affect all South Africans, regardless of their race or heritage.

Conclusion

The journey of understanding one’s identity in South Africa is multifaceted and ever-evolving. For the writer, this journey includes personal pride in their heritage, indifference towards general labels, and a deep sense of shame and anger stemming from the current socio-political climate.

Through this exploration, we gain insights into the complexities of identity in a nation striving for unity and progress. It challenges us to reflect on the meanings we assign to our labels and the emotions they evoke.